I’ve already done two bids and now I’m on my third. When I say “bid” I’m talking about the time you have to wait until you can go back to your cooming destination of choice >September 2017 - October 2018 (1 year, 1 month) >March 2019 - Jan 2021 ( 1 year, 10 months) >March 4th 2022 - ~August 2024 (2 years, 4 months)
From 2018 onward, my entire life has been cooming in Thailand, or daydreaming/hyping myself up about the next trip, depending on how far away it is.
It’s kind of sad in a way, because in America i don’t have a life at all. I bury myself in literature and 40 year old loser incel livestreams. I completely shut society out. Once I’m done reading Les l miserables, I’m unironically going to read the King James Bible. On the other hand, in Thailand, I woke up actually wanting to go out and enjoy my life and I did most of the time. I made friends, I had non-p4p flings with a few girls and I have one that still texts me when she’s drink because I gave her savage sidegra dick the few times I fricked her and her pussy is smitten
Now the worst part of all is that every trip has gotten increasingly less novel, and I feel like at a certain point, i will have the same numbness and familiarity that I do in America except I can creampie 19 year old teens.
In my pursuit of fine literature, I’ve read war and peace and Les miserables, these authors have a serious affinity for godly, saintly characters, and it’s very charming and I am moved by it.
For this reason, I am slowly turning to god, because I have this suspicion that when the ephemeral cooming has run its course, I will have god. I see no other escape from this lot in life
Lit-anon, are you American? Could you go and teach English in Asia to experience this full-time? I'm in a similar position where I had a trip months ago and all I can do is daydream about the next one. Reading books and going on long walks after work to keep sane. I have no life in Europe.
I got a TEFL in Thailand on my second trip and it felt sacrilegious to hold the position of a teacher, esteemed and respected in Thai society, as a teacher of children, as a means to the end of fricking prostitutes. I’m pretty amoral, but that’s not something I can stomach. Furthermore teaching English would pay you enough to live paycheck to paycheck in order the keep up with the coomer lifestyle. even if you lived like a Thai did, you’d barely be saving any money. You can only pull it off by arbitraging a western salary.
Lit-anon, are you American? Could you go and teach English in Asia to experience this full-time? I'm in a similar position where I had a trip months ago and all I can do is daydream about the next one. Reading books and going on long walks after work to keep sane. I have no life in Europe.
Lit-anon, are you American? Could you go and teach English in Asia to experience this full-time? I'm in a similar position where I had a trip months ago and all I can do is daydream about the next one. Reading books and going on long walks after work to keep sane. I have no life in Europe.
None that I know of
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I got a TEFL in Thailand on my second trip and it felt sacrilegious to hold the position of a teacher, esteemed and respected in Thai society, as a teacher of children, as a means to the end of fricking prostitutes. I’m pretty amoral, but that’s not something I can stomach. Furthermore teaching English would pay you enough to live paycheck to paycheck in order the keep up with the coomer lifestyle. even if you lived like a Thai did, you’d barely be saving any money. You can only pull it off by arbitraging a western salary.
you guys just sound like addicts. maybe fricking prostitutes 24/7 isn't healthy long-term, have you considered that?
not that guy. What a sad mindset. You only get one life and you're going to live it out as some monk abstaining from any form of pleasure? May as well have a nice day now.
I never said to live your live as a monk. What I mean is if you live a fulfilling life, a loyal, loving spouse kids, good friends, a job you don't hate, etc. then you don't need to turn to escapism to fill a void. People seek out video games, regular drug/alcohol use, meaningless cooming, endless traveling, etc. because their lives are empty.
8 months ago
Anonymous
I've already lived all of that and it's not really worth it. The wife, the kids, the minivan, the government job. I feel guilty for leaving them but at least I waited until my boy was a teenager. I'd have friends over for poker nights, thinking damn, these guys are my family, not that prostitute upstairs who continues to put on 10lbs/month despite being an adult who should know better than to eat a box of cookies for a snack. And I barely know my son. He's not home most of the time, and neither am I. Could I swallow all this and play the party of a good dad? Yeah, but do I want to? No, not really.
8 months ago
Anonymous
you should try to help your son regardless
8 months ago
Anonymous
maybe when he's older. I don't see how my presence is gonna help him. Or maybe I just don't care and have time for that again. I gave up so much for 12 years. I've even moved in with my new girlfriend. She's from China and I can't even imagine the day shes half my ex wife's size. This life is insane. Maybe I've woken up too early for everyone, but have you seen what society accepts? Double XL blue jeans for women and men from age 10 to 70.
I am sorta isolated, so it gives me new perspectives others haven't had, but also being in China to marry my wife shows my everything is OK with who I am, and I shouldn't feel so guilty
8 months ago
Anonymous
You from the states? You guys got it rough
8 months ago
Anonymous
It sounds like you had an unfulfilling and distant relationship with your wife. How long was it like that? What was it like in the beginning?
8 months ago
Anonymous
I proposed after 4 months of knowing her because I thought that's what a man does when he gets a woman pregnant out of wedlock. I still had a lot to learn about her, specifically the adderall she would take to help her with work, and the thyroid issues... Anyway, she wasn't going to abort the baby because she's a conservative, grew up outside the city, and her parents would've been pissed, so there was a lot of pressure to keep the kid. Fast forward 8.5 months and it's all too real. I hated that crying, I swear it made me age 10 years over 6 months. I lost hair and grew bags under my eyes since I'd wake up each morning, sleep deprived, force feed myself oatmeal (most nutritious meal I could think of that was still easy on the wallet so there'd be new, clean diapers in the closet), and go to work to rest. I had my own cubicle there, so it provided more privacy and relaxation than at home in some ways. Sit, sip coffee, read news, type some words for the bossman.
The escapism I got from work saved me from ending things sooner. 12 years of that was enough. She just kept evolving into more of a nobody, just a living thing with a name that eats, sleeps, and shits, here for no purpose. I obvious fell out of love with her to feel that way which makes me feel much less guilty
8 months ago
Anonymous
I don’t care. American life for people who don’t make 100k+ after taxes is even sadder
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Jesus Christ I am NEVER getting married or having kids in America. I had two pregnancy scares and thank GOD they weren’t my kids
this is entirely his fault.
8 months ago
Anonymous
I guess this goes to every man in this thread. If you are the one taking care of the child(changing diaper, bottle feeding, etc) it's over for you. Tending to the needs of a child is solely the duty of the mother. I always cringed when I would see fathers in the birthing ward, holding his wife's hand. It just seems so disgusting to me in a way I can't exactly articulate. Birthing/Maternity is exclusively feminine, that's why midwives and nannies exist. You are not meant to be a nanny, you are a fricking man. A man doesn't change diapers.
8 months ago
Anonymous
Based and agreed. Raising children is women’s work. I’ll make the money but that frickin b***h is doing everything else domestic
https://i.imgur.com/OiFfVDu.jpg
I am in love with you
Wow that picture is probably almost 2 years old. Im quite charmed
8 months ago
Anonymous
maybe when he's older. I don't see how my presence is gonna help him. Or maybe I just don't care and have time for that again. I gave up so much for 12 years. I've even moved in with my new girlfriend. She's from China and I can't even imagine the day shes half my ex wife's size. This life is insane. Maybe I've woken up too early for everyone, but have you seen what society accepts? Double XL blue jeans for women and men from age 10 to 70.
I am sorta isolated, so it gives me new perspectives others haven't had, but also being in China to marry my wife shows my everything is OK with who I am, and I shouldn't feel so guilty
This is why I’m not getting married or having kids. These stories are a dime a dozen. My own dad seems like he was pressured into having kids and never really wanted to do it.
I think a lot of dads get pressured or trapped into this life through complacency and scarcity of vegana. Only women really truly want this shit. It seems like it never plays out the way it’s idolized before you’re in the depths of it
8 months ago
Anonymous
I don’t care. American life for people who don’t make 100k+ after taxes is even sadder
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Jesus Christ I am NEVER getting married or having kids in America. I had two pregnancy scares and thank GOD they weren’t my kids
>getting women I don't really know pregnant and then marrying them on the basis that I think that's what I'm supposed to do will make me unhappy
are you morons 18 or something? You don't have to do anything, and that includes marrying women you don't like or having kids. The muh pressure OP is talking about doesn't exist, you can just suck it up, walk away and deal with the consequences but with your freedom intact. If you or your dad or your friends get "pressured" into having kids that just means they are losers desperate for pussy. Walk away homie, divorce homie do anything else other than what you specifically don't want to do.
8 months ago
Anonymous
Where the frick did I say I was gonna do anything? Didn’t I literally say it’s a situation I’m trying to avoid and have thankfully avoided? I fricking hate American women dude
8 months ago
Anonymous
I understand that, all I'm saying is you can't just make a bunch of moronic choices and then blame marriage itself for it (like OP). If it's not for you it's not for you.
8 months ago
Anonymous
Yea yea I get it now you were just speaking generally
8 months ago
Anonymous
>What I mean is if you live a fulfilling life, a loyal, loving spouse kids, good friends, a job you don't hate, etc
You do realize only a very tiny minority of people have all of this?
Hey, glad you're still around. We've had a correspondence 2 years ago during your "my new style" thread. I enjoy what you share with us. You have a unique perspective of the world and its fascinating. The mediocre, washed-out face of daily life is adapted into a charming, hopeful suffering - a lot like being intoxicated and pining for the goddess you've gone on a few dates with, without her reciprocating clear signs of interest, making her seem obtainable yet distant, perhaps even inducing panic attacks at night, all unbeknownst to her. Do you have a blog?
You two still keep in contact? You two were so cute together!! I hope you can meet her again soon and enjoy more time together. She'd be lucky to have such a smart, understanding, and pleasant friend with her.
I've always heard people reference Les Miserables. I just read the plot on wiki, and man, talk about people being insufferable and backstabbing. I like that bishop who accepted Jean and helped him start a new life.
You HAVE to read it man. It’s an amazing book I’m 800/1400 pages in and it is amazing storytelling eloquence, interweaving, saintly characters, fate ,religion. I read war and peace just before, also amazing and Tolstoy quotes Les miserables as his inspo >are you still in contact?
Yes but she has a boyfriend. She had a “boyfriend” when we started having sex, clearly boyfriend is indeterminate in Thailand especially when it comes to farang. If we don’t get to bang again so be it. It’s a treasure of memory >blog
This is my blog :), but maybe I’ll start a YouTube channel
I don’t care. American life for people who don’t make 100k+ after taxes is even sadder
I proposed after 4 months of knowing her because I thought that's what a man does when he gets a woman pregnant out of wedlock. I still had a lot to learn about her, specifically the adderall she would take to help her with work, and the thyroid issues... Anyway, she wasn't going to abort the baby because she's a conservative, grew up outside the city, and her parents would've been pissed, so there was a lot of pressure to keep the kid. Fast forward 8.5 months and it's all too real. I hated that crying, I swear it made me age 10 years over 6 months. I lost hair and grew bags under my eyes since I'd wake up each morning, sleep deprived, force feed myself oatmeal (most nutritious meal I could think of that was still easy on the wallet so there'd be new, clean diapers in the closet), and go to work to rest. I had my own cubicle there, so it provided more privacy and relaxation than at home in some ways. Sit, sip coffee, read news, type some words for the bossman.
The escapism I got from work saved me from ending things sooner. 12 years of that was enough. She just kept evolving into more of a nobody, just a living thing with a name that eats, sleeps, and shits, here for no purpose. I obvious fell out of love with her to feel that way which makes me feel much less guilty
Jesus Christ I am NEVER getting married or having kids in America. I had two pregnancy scares and thank GOD they weren’t my kids
I’ve already done two bids and now I’m on my third. When I say “bid” I’m talking about the time you have to wait until you can go back to your cooming destination of choice
>September 2017 - October 2018 (1 year, 1 month)
>March 2019 - Jan 2021 ( 1 year, 10 months)
>March 4th 2022 - ~August 2024 (2 years, 4 months)
From 2018 onward, my entire life has been cooming in Thailand, or daydreaming/hyping myself up about the next trip, depending on how far away it is.
It’s kind of sad in a way, because in America i don’t have a life at all. I bury myself in literature and 40 year old loser incel livestreams. I completely shut society out. Once I’m done reading Les l miserables, I’m unironically going to read the King James Bible. On the other hand, in Thailand, I woke up actually wanting to go out and enjoy my life and I did most of the time. I made friends, I had non-p4p flings with a few girls and I have one that still texts me when she’s drink because I gave her savage sidegra dick the few times I fricked her and her pussy is smitten
Now the worst part of all is that every trip has gotten increasingly less novel, and I feel like at a certain point, i will have the same numbness and familiarity that I do in America except I can creampie 19 year old teens.
In my pursuit of fine literature, I’ve read war and peace and Les miserables, these authors have a serious affinity for godly, saintly characters, and it’s very charming and I am moved by it.
For this reason, I am slowly turning to god, because I have this suspicion that when the ephemeral cooming has run its course, I will have god. I see no other escape from this lot in life
And just for perspective, across these three trips, I spent almost 2 years in Thailand. These weren’t 2 week homosexual fests
>cooming in 19yo teens
How many children do you have by now?
None that I know of
I got a TEFL in Thailand on my second trip and it felt sacrilegious to hold the position of a teacher, esteemed and respected in Thai society, as a teacher of children, as a means to the end of fricking prostitutes. I’m pretty amoral, but that’s not something I can stomach. Furthermore teaching English would pay you enough to live paycheck to paycheck in order the keep up with the coomer lifestyle. even if you lived like a Thai did, you’d barely be saving any money. You can only pull it off by arbitraging a western salary.
Lit-anon, are you American? Could you go and teach English in Asia to experience this full-time? I'm in a similar position where I had a trip months ago and all I can do is daydream about the next one. Reading books and going on long walks after work to keep sane. I have no life in Europe.
No you can't, you don't earn enough money to live that life style teaching english
Surely, you can date local chicks if you live there. Maybe not Thailand, but Vietnam instead?
you guys just sound like addicts. maybe fricking prostitutes 24/7 isn't healthy long-term, have you considered that?
It's hard to live without vices. If not prostitutes, it may be drugs, alcohol, gambling, computer games and so on.
It's easy to live without vices, but not if your life sucks. Work on addressing that.
not that guy. What a sad mindset. You only get one life and you're going to live it out as some monk abstaining from any form of pleasure? May as well have a nice day now.
I never said to live your live as a monk. What I mean is if you live a fulfilling life, a loyal, loving spouse kids, good friends, a job you don't hate, etc. then you don't need to turn to escapism to fill a void. People seek out video games, regular drug/alcohol use, meaningless cooming, endless traveling, etc. because their lives are empty.
I've already lived all of that and it's not really worth it. The wife, the kids, the minivan, the government job. I feel guilty for leaving them but at least I waited until my boy was a teenager. I'd have friends over for poker nights, thinking damn, these guys are my family, not that prostitute upstairs who continues to put on 10lbs/month despite being an adult who should know better than to eat a box of cookies for a snack. And I barely know my son. He's not home most of the time, and neither am I. Could I swallow all this and play the party of a good dad? Yeah, but do I want to? No, not really.
you should try to help your son regardless
maybe when he's older. I don't see how my presence is gonna help him. Or maybe I just don't care and have time for that again. I gave up so much for 12 years. I've even moved in with my new girlfriend. She's from China and I can't even imagine the day shes half my ex wife's size. This life is insane. Maybe I've woken up too early for everyone, but have you seen what society accepts? Double XL blue jeans for women and men from age 10 to 70.
I am sorta isolated, so it gives me new perspectives others haven't had, but also being in China to marry my wife shows my everything is OK with who I am, and I shouldn't feel so guilty
You from the states? You guys got it rough
It sounds like you had an unfulfilling and distant relationship with your wife. How long was it like that? What was it like in the beginning?
I proposed after 4 months of knowing her because I thought that's what a man does when he gets a woman pregnant out of wedlock. I still had a lot to learn about her, specifically the adderall she would take to help her with work, and the thyroid issues... Anyway, she wasn't going to abort the baby because she's a conservative, grew up outside the city, and her parents would've been pissed, so there was a lot of pressure to keep the kid. Fast forward 8.5 months and it's all too real. I hated that crying, I swear it made me age 10 years over 6 months. I lost hair and grew bags under my eyes since I'd wake up each morning, sleep deprived, force feed myself oatmeal (most nutritious meal I could think of that was still easy on the wallet so there'd be new, clean diapers in the closet), and go to work to rest. I had my own cubicle there, so it provided more privacy and relaxation than at home in some ways. Sit, sip coffee, read news, type some words for the bossman.
The escapism I got from work saved me from ending things sooner. 12 years of that was enough. She just kept evolving into more of a nobody, just a living thing with a name that eats, sleeps, and shits, here for no purpose. I obvious fell out of love with her to feel that way which makes me feel much less guilty
this is entirely his fault.
I guess this goes to every man in this thread. If you are the one taking care of the child(changing diaper, bottle feeding, etc) it's over for you. Tending to the needs of a child is solely the duty of the mother. I always cringed when I would see fathers in the birthing ward, holding his wife's hand. It just seems so disgusting to me in a way I can't exactly articulate. Birthing/Maternity is exclusively feminine, that's why midwives and nannies exist. You are not meant to be a nanny, you are a fricking man. A man doesn't change diapers.
Based and agreed. Raising children is women’s work. I’ll make the money but that frickin b***h is doing everything else domestic
Wow that picture is probably almost 2 years old. Im quite charmed
This is why I’m not getting married or having kids. These stories are a dime a dozen. My own dad seems like he was pressured into having kids and never really wanted to do it.
I think a lot of dads get pressured or trapped into this life through complacency and scarcity of vegana. Only women really truly want this shit. It seems like it never plays out the way it’s idolized before you’re in the depths of it
>getting women I don't really know pregnant and then marrying them on the basis that I think that's what I'm supposed to do will make me unhappy
are you morons 18 or something? You don't have to do anything, and that includes marrying women you don't like or having kids. The muh pressure OP is talking about doesn't exist, you can just suck it up, walk away and deal with the consequences but with your freedom intact. If you or your dad or your friends get "pressured" into having kids that just means they are losers desperate for pussy. Walk away homie, divorce homie do anything else other than what you specifically don't want to do.
Where the frick did I say I was gonna do anything? Didn’t I literally say it’s a situation I’m trying to avoid and have thankfully avoided? I fricking hate American women dude
I understand that, all I'm saying is you can't just make a bunch of moronic choices and then blame marriage itself for it (like OP). If it's not for you it's not for you.
Yea yea I get it now you were just speaking generally
>What I mean is if you live a fulfilling life, a loyal, loving spouse kids, good friends, a job you don't hate, etc
You do realize only a very tiny minority of people have all of this?
Half way there is very achievable.
Are you "my new style" anon? Or do I have you confused with ttt?
We’re the same person. Thats my picture lol. Charmed that you saved it
She looks like this now. Such a giga qt korat girl
Hey, glad you're still around. We've had a correspondence 2 years ago during your "my new style" thread. I enjoy what you share with us. You have a unique perspective of the world and its fascinating. The mediocre, washed-out face of daily life is adapted into a charming, hopeful suffering - a lot like being intoxicated and pining for the goddess you've gone on a few dates with, without her reciprocating clear signs of interest, making her seem obtainable yet distant, perhaps even inducing panic attacks at night, all unbeknownst to her. Do you have a blog?
You two still keep in contact? You two were so cute together!! I hope you can meet her again soon and enjoy more time together. She'd be lucky to have such a smart, understanding, and pleasant friend with her.
I've always heard people reference Les Miserables. I just read the plot on wiki, and man, talk about people being insufferable and backstabbing. I like that bishop who accepted Jean and helped him start a new life.
You HAVE to read it man. It’s an amazing book I’m 800/1400 pages in and it is amazing storytelling eloquence, interweaving, saintly characters, fate ,religion. I read war and peace just before, also amazing and Tolstoy quotes Les miserables as his inspo
>are you still in contact?
Yes but she has a boyfriend. She had a “boyfriend” when we started having sex, clearly boyfriend is indeterminate in Thailand especially when it comes to farang. If we don’t get to bang again so be it. It’s a treasure of memory
>blog
This is my blog :), but maybe I’ll start a YouTube channel
>From 2018 onward, my entire life has been cooming in Thailand, or daydreaming/hyping myself up about the next trip, depending on how far away it is.
This is sad
I don’t care. American life for people who don’t make 100k+ after taxes is even sadder
Jesus Christ I am NEVER getting married or having kids in America. I had two pregnancy scares and thank GOD they weren’t my kids
I sleep in a big bed with my wife
Your wife is gonna get old and fat and start smelling like death
I am in love with you
James?
Where do you go in Thailand, OP?
Sounds like you need a purpose.
by travelling again as soon as possible. "post travel depression" is just the realization that other parts of the world are just better.